It took me almost a year to finally write this post. Why? Because I felt I needed some time to process my thoughts and emotions. After all, I will be sharing a story about acceptance, letting go, and closure.
After months of daily prayers, different kinds of therapies, meeting new friends, and obtaining the wisdom of a forty-year old, I can finally say that I am now in a state of genuine happiness.
For months, it was so hard for me to even fathom why beautiful things need to end. I cannot accept why I needed to say goodbye when I have invested so much time, effort and love in what I do. I can still remember that one fateful night when I saw the announcement. I was dancing my youngest son to sleep that time when I felt the world collapsing. I still have so many dreams, so many plans… I was clueless on what happens next. I spent the entire night thinking, and convincing myself that they could have sent it incorrectly and that they will retract it the next day. I was in denial. And, that evening was by far the longest night of my life.
Packing a boxful of 13 years worth of learning, hardwork, love, passion, and memories was not easy. I had to close my office door and wipe the tears rolling down my cheeks.
That day, it felt surreal how I’ve come to appreciate every corner of my office that has witnessed all my frustrations and happiness. The Herman Miller chair that absorbed the weight of the pressure on me. The huge table that felt all the taps and scribbles of my tired hand for years. The four claustrophobic corners of my office that served as my fortress from some chaotic and crazy days in the office. The white board, which reminded me that there is still so much to do, but a lot has been accomplished already. The huge office windows, showing me a glimpse of the outside world on a busy day, which reminded me that whatever I’m going through, “These challenges shall pass.”
Call me sentimental, but yes. I kept this “Welcome Folder” handed to me when I joined the company as a yuppie over a decade ago. This brought so much endearing memories. I can still remember what I wore that day and how I felt the challenge to adjust coming from a fast-paced telco in Ortigas to a bit laid-back, yet exciting job in an industrial park in Laguna.
And so they say, the rest is history.
After launching hundreds of products, working on several projects and organizing numerous events, I must say that it was quite a climb! From a yuppie to being part of the country leadership team. From commuting to work to driving my own car. A lot has changed in my life since then. Indeed, science has made my life better. 🙂
As I embark into a new journey, let me express my appreciation.
Thank you for accepting me as a yuppie and for patiently teaching and honing me to what I am today. Thank you for pushing me to the limit and for stretching me to squeeze out the best in me. Thank you for giving me the best days of my life – best experiences, best relationships, best mentors.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, Bayer.
Forever grateful,
Mumay
Kwento ni Mumay 